i was reminded today that some of the things i worry about don't even make sense and that i am only responsible for who i am in this life, today. i cannot change the past and certainly not past lives if i ever really even had any. i need to be thinking about the things that matter. i feel like i am really making an effort to do that too, but the ( Read more... )

in a world where i am right, i am also in danger, at least to the point where i have justifiable paranoia, but in a world where i am crazy, at least everything can appear safe. i walk a line between which world i am living in. right now i'm trying to live in the world where i am crazy, and pretending to accept it but don't fully

i just saw something on the news that a kid who robbed me a few years ago was arrested for armed robbery. i don't know if this will have an effect on my mental health or not, but it might. a lot of the traumatic stuff i've been involved in in recent years has tied together in a lot of ways, and this is related to some of that. it's kind of an ( Read more... )

yesterday, one of my close internet friends had a heart attack. he is 24 years old, transgender and without insurance. the first hospital he was brought to refused to treat him and he nearly died on his way to the second one. that hospital treated him, but then they accused him of being a coke-head, mistreated him, made some threats to him, and ( Read more... )

try to consider what you can't ( Read more... )

Invisible disabilities meme ( Read more... )

i had a dream about an old friend of mine just now. i just woke up from the dream. we were in the psych ward together, and it was also a train or a plane. in real life, we have both been in psych wards, but not together. and in the dream, like real life, i had not seen her since i was like 20 years old... before transition. i was walking down the ( Read more... )

I found this stick over by Spy Pond. It was in the water, so when i took it out, the bark was very easy to peel off of it. As i peeled it, i flashed back to summer of 1993, another time i peeled bark off a stick, when i was being lectured by a man i looked up to for my behavior. He was warning me that my behavior could get me into trouble. We had a ( Read more... )

All the art done here is by people with mental illness. I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and have been diagnosed with a lot of other things in the process. I use art to express my thoughts and emotions and i do not think my art would be nearly as good had i not suffered from PTSD ( Read more... )

Today i went swimming when i woke up. I didn't take pictures of that. After swimming i took a shower and then took the T into Boston for an appointment.

Here i am reading the Metro on the Red Line

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